Hunter, "I will carry you" in my heart and in my mind!

I came across a beautiful song today.  A group known as Selah sings it.  I loved the lyrics.  Here they are:

"I Will Carry You"

There were photographs I wanted to take


Things I wanted to show you

Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes

Who could love you like this?



People say that I am brave but I'm not

Truth is I'm barely hanging on

But there's a greater story

Written long before me

Because He loves you like this



[Chorus]

I will carry you

While your heart beats here

Long beyond the empty cradle

Through the coming years

I will carry you

All my life

And I will praise the One Who's chosen me

To carry you



Such a short time

Such a long road

All this madness

But I know

That the silence

Has brought me to His voice

And He says ...



I've shown him photographs of time beginning

Walked him through the parted seas

Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes

Who could love him like this?


[Chorus]

No one seems to want to talk about Hunter around here, but I miss him.  I love being an auntie, and I had dreams of all the fun things I would get to do with Hunter once he was born. Those dreams came to a crashing halt on July 20th of this year.  One dream did come true though, and I am thankful for it, I got to hold him in my arms.  I got to touch his tiny hands, kiss his baby cheek and love on him for the short time he was with us.  I think of him often.  I wish he could have stayed.  But, I know he's seeing things we will never see on this side of Heaven.  Know that you are loved and missed Hunter!  Love, Auntie Karen.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Well, this is Erik's 5th Thanksgiving!  I can't believe how fast time goes by.  For his 1st Thanksgiving, Erik was 8 mos. old and still fitting in preemie clothes.  Now our miracle boy is in 18-24 mos. size clothing and he is getting quite chunky!  We sure do love him. I am thankful for the 4 nephews God has blessed me with.  Christopher is the oldest and nearing 20 years old.  I had the priveledge of being there as Christopher entered this world.  He was nearly 9 lbs. at birth!!!  Such an amazing experience for this auntie, especially because the next 3 boys born to my brother were all born prematurely and via c-section.  Justin was a tiny tyke, born nearly 7 weeks early and weighing 4 lbs. 10 oz.  He had a tiny start, but he is now a strapping 11 yr. old.  He keeps life interesting and busy.  lol  Erik, the one who this blog is about, came into our life 11 weeks early and weighing only 1 lb. 3 oz.  He was not as big as he should have been for a 29 weeker.  He should have been closer to 3 lbs.  But, Erik made his mark in this world and he continues to bring joy to our family.  I couldn't imagine life without him and I am thankful I don't have to.  Last came our sweet boy, Hunter.  Hunter will be missed this Thanksgiving.  He touched our lives in such a tremendous way.  Although I wish he could be here with us, I am thankful we got to meet him.  I am thankful I heard his heartbeat on the monitor a week before he was born.  I am thankful I got to hold him right after he was born, when he was still alive.  I am thankful he lived, even if it was for a brief moment.  Thank You Lord for the 2 hours he spent with us after he was born.  Thank You Lord for allowing our family the priveledge of these four, handsome boys!  I am, indeed, very thankful.  HAPPY THANKSGIVING!